Unfinished business

A text of Tipitii really got me thinking. How to accept the fact that I'm imperfect? Broken, unfinished, defective. I'm not perfect and never will be, I don't know everything and never will. Is it useless to aim for perfection, then? To aim for something means you must believe it's possible. I know it's not possible to be flawless, but still, I'd like to be. I reckon it must be an "Adam&Eve" -type of a thing, where the created ones wish to be like the creator, perfect and omniscient.

Isn't imperfection the very thing that makes us human? Understading this might give us some peace of mind, a reason to forgive ourselves and others, to humbly accept we're unfinished.

Fever inspired thoughts

Lately I've given some thought to prayer. What is prayer, really? It's your heart talking with God, someone said. I've tried talking to God through my mouth, through my thoughts, through my heart and though my soul, but so far, no significant effect. I could very well talk passionately about the healing power of prayer, without having ever experienced it myself. Someone once explained that my faith's the problem. I don't believe in God enough, I'm afraid of compeletely surrendering to God, I don't trust him. Probably all true, but isn't God the only one who can give faith? How can it then be MY fault, if I don't have enough faith? I have given God permission to enter my life and my heart, what else does he need? I can't believe God is so small that he can only enter a certain person's life if that person has the exact mindset needed. What's this mindset like? Open, trusting, welcoming? Stupid, blind, naive?

Don't get me wrong, I'm a firm believer of prayer. I do believe praying can bring something significant into people's lives, other people's lives. It just doesn't seem to work with me.

First

I created this blog several months ago so I could share my post-NZ life with anyone interested. It was meant to become a blog full stories about my new, adventurous lifestyle. So far, no adventures. I still haven't given up though. I just thought it might be about time to change the purpose of this blog. I now consider it more as a way of dealing with things happening in my life and sharing my thoughts. I've never been an excellent writer, so it's not my purpose to give anyone any life-changing reading experiences. I still believe anyone can learn good writing and I'd love to.