Forgiven

I was planning to write another angry and frustrated post about Christianity, how I find it very hard to understand why anyone would want to live forever & how ppl want to play God etc. Anyway, something else came up.

I believe God is nothing but a mental image but that doesn't make him any less important. I've realised how much I need that image. I've struggled with the feelings of guilt and especially shame for a long time. I don't believe that these are caused by "the sin me", I'm pretty sure I've created those feelings myself. Constantly aiming for perfection comes with a prise. The other day I realised what kind of a role someone called God might have in this. God is Forgiveness. Through my God (i.e. what he means to me) I might be able to learn to forgive myself and to accept my failures. In a way I feel like I'm starting to find my way to interpret religious language and what it might mean to me.